♥ Thursday, December 18, 2008
Hmmmm.....today was good...i think ><...hahax...haiz...the only thing missing now is my darling =(!!!!!she went of 2 days ago and she coming 24 dec..wow...9 days!!!ah..cant survive >.<..wat to do???haiz...miss her loads already!!!geez...went shopping today and i got myself a new hobby...buidling those gundams ><..jus bot two of them..but the small ones...u noe...im so missing os much that i kinda...called her name to sum other girl O_O..damn was so damn emberassing!!!i mistook her cos she look so much like my darling..the way she dressed and all...her hair..everyhting...the onli thing we stood out to show it wasnt my darling is well...she was taller...kinda...1.7???yeah..abt there...but still i mistook her for mine...haiz...everytime o look at my fone i will always view her pics and her number..tinking hw is she...i really hope she's enjoying herself..its so cold in shanghai nw...least i gt to talk to my jie today..she kinda did the trick n cheered me up..well a lil...nw im jus wating for her return to singapore...wish can see her on 24 dec..as well as mass too...wanna spend time wif her..tink thats it...better go do my gundams...try blog tomorow.
Labels: kinda sad now
♥ Thursday, December 11, 2008
Hey people...back again ><...well today wasnt so bad =)...woke up early mornign to call her .<..hahax..she sounded so s so cute..when she is sleepy ><...hahax..love her for that..chat wif her for awhile..then asked her to sleep...so did i..hahax..guess i feel asleep..ahhax...but ya...was worth it ><...woke up later n all..watched my chinese shows as usual..hahax...tehn well...studied studied...then play audi!!!hahax..as suual zun zun..she online again ><..ahhax...unbelivable huh?hahax...well..then fo cos played wif he..ahhax...missed her so much le ahahx..then as usual we had our all kinds of chats form sweet chats to jus pure ya...hahax...ahhax..not much to type here today..lol..kinda broing already..this hols was kinda..lame la..ps2 spoilt also..wat am i suppose to do???cant play FFx or FFX-2..tahts damn sad man...more over..i lost some fun already..no ps2..jus left my phone...my t.v n com
Oh wells..cant help it right??hahax...but yup yup...not sure whats on tomorow..guess its gonna be boring again ><...haiz...a few more days left...if she's reading this now she should noe wat i mean...hahax...but ya..anywyas..thnk thats all for now ><..hahax...try to blog tomorrow >
Labels: ahhax smiles smiles
♥ Monday, December 8, 2008
Heys...wow...been long since i blogged huh?What can i say???not really cos i no mood..more off...how i say...ya basically...not good days actually...sure there were times when i had loads of fun and a good day..but...this few days???not soo good...haiz...i really hate myself sia....cant i make things right for once???today...wasnt so bad actually...called my darling in the morning....great...but being over concern...i asked if she was alright..then it happened...i opened my big mouth n said somehting which of cos..i dun tink i should put it here since she still mad at me...that ticked her off...really...whats worse??i caused spite to holly too...i mean ya...cant i jus shut up n dun do anythign worng for once??everything is like going wrong seriously....last week worst the worst so far...in 7 days...i fot with her...for ike wat???3 consecutive days...i mean..ya...and all it was about???as usual...my tendency of going agianst the one i so very love..i cant say its a guy thing...sure it is..to u noe...do a lil more then wat ur lover wants but..i guess i overdid it...my mood went hey-wire...i even spoke in the way i promised myself never to speak her...i spoke in a ery very serious but...hurtful tone..i dont know..if its cos..of my music...u noe the syaing of 'music is food for ur soul???yeah...my love for metal went to a new drive...a sexual but yet brutal metal...and i tot my mind was corrupted enuf..maybe i should take break from metal...maybe???it may be the cause of why i lost my temper so easily..i love her so very much...but my emotions drives me...haiz...called her like..half an hour ago..she's still mad at me...i dun blame her..she's got a guy..who lover her very very much...but can gte on a girls nerves u noe???she asked if i could ever change...i would love to..but it takes time ryt??i really really hope..she can smile n be happy tonight..or at least..tomorow..cos i now i got this habit of calling her in the morning...i noe...bad tme to disturb a grils sleep huh?but thats the only time when i can talk wif her...maybe thats why she so cranky..i guess..i gotta speak nicely n have my patience again tomorow..i really hope she fine..before i go...here's something i want to say to my darling since i cant speak to her now.To my sweetie:I am sorry...that i was to much for u..i am sorry..i noe that u love me alot alot..thanks for that..i promise never to abuse that love of urs...i dun wanna see u ever cry again ok sweetie??it hurts me very much...i noe that i am the cos of ur sadness..thats why u noe im trying already...to control myself..its always n has been for ur sake...i cant promise u that i can stop totally no..but i can promise u..that i wll be there for u n be always loyal to you...u can count on that..you have always been the most valuable to me...its always u who drives me on and never gives up on me...i am lucky...no very very lucky to have u...please darling...if u can...form ur bottom of ur heart...forgive ur boyfriend and let it pass..i am not gonna risk our realtionship again...if ur reading this in the night...u hope i have made ur nightto let u sleep tight and soundly and have a good night sweetie.if ur reading this in the morning...i hope i had made ur morning to enjoy ur day.basically...i am sorry for my behaviour and i really hope we alrgiht sweetie.i love u very much.alrights thats all for today.